Thought I would share this from my Devotional Journal.

Alarm went off this morning, and I did not know exactly what was going on.. I was thrashing around hoping at some point to HIT whatever was making that SOUND.... than I GOT IT.. YES>. oops that was my BLACK BERRY.. ummm HELLOOO.. hahahaha... I am learning they are resilient, thank goodness.... Took me longer to get up but I finally did... Got the coffee made, picked out my favorite "set" to use this morning and dug into my devotions..



I have heard it said by many that they to fight the same battle I do, The devil wants to steal our joy!! Had such wonderful services Sunday, such a wonderful time in devotions yesterday morning, than I guess that was enough "joy" so Satan thought, and there he went, trying to snatch it this morning... I said "Devil I may only have one eye open, still need my coffee, and not fully alert... but you ARE NOT starting in on me now" SO I got up, got another cup of coffee and kept digging... Still felt like I was not "getting" what I was looking for, not fed enough, needed more.. I would stop and pray and ask The Lord to please help me to "HEAR" not just read His word... I am so thankful HE cares even about the little things... I opened up to the book of Matthew ( 17)where I had left off, and began reading where Jesus took Peter, James, and John up on a high mountain. He was transfigured right before their very eyes, they also seen Moses, and Elijah.. and from what I was reading this took place within a week of Christ's prediction of His Crucifixion. (WOW) When they seen this, a cloud came and covered them and they heard GOD speak, " This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased, HEAR HIM" The disciples had heard God say this before(Mat 3:17) when Jesus was baptised, but not the part of "HEAR HIM" From what I was reading, they were confused at this vision, did not understand, all the pieces of the puzzle were not fitting together in their minds.. BUT they were committed to Jesus and so they believed. My Study bible said" The disciples were at the crucial point of commitment to Jesus, everything hinged on who HE was to them(Mat 16:15)Jesus was trying to prepare them for the challenge of would seem like defeat that was ahead, the Cross! They were instructed when they came down from the mountain to tell no one(Matt:17:9) Read on in that same chapter to when a man came kneeling before Jesus to have mercy on his son, he had taken his son to the disciples and they could not heal him. Jesus was what seemed to me to be frustration when he spoke to them about their lack of faith(Matt 17:17-21) SO Jesus rebuked them, and had the boy brought to him so He could do the work...

Lord help my lack of faith, Teach me, mold me, make me! If I could but really get a hold of that faith 24/7 what kind of revival would happen in my soul!!! I do have faith, I have seen mountains in our life moved, but it seems the enemy of my soul creeps in unawares, and I find myself once again facing that mountain of unbelief.. Teach me to discern the very SECOND the enemy tries to creep in... Lord YOU are on the throne, and in control of ALL.. Empty me, so I can be filled with you! I love you Jesus, you are the lover of my soul, I yearn for more of you, NOTHING is more dear to me than you and the gift you gave me of salvation . I refuse to give it up.. I will not give in.. I will not quit. This relationship I have with you is worth more than life itself and I realize I am in the fight of my life for it.. You fought for me that day on Calvary, so today I am fighting in my flesh for you.. I CHOOSE to believe, I Choose to have faith, because I KNOW FAITH WORKS... I Choose YOU Lord this day to serve, for as for me AND MY HOUSE, WE WILL SERVE YOU!!!