As some of you have already heard my grandpa passed away yesterday,he may have only been a "step" Grandpa but he was still very close to grandma's family. Over this past year or so we have grown even closer and spent alot of time together.... he would come and pick the girls up and take them to the park to play and eat all the junk he would buy them.. trips to McDonald's.. wal mart and many other places.. He would come and just sit and watch them play every night and on occasion would be found out playing with them... There were tea party's where he was the guest of honor and the list just goes on. He had a special relationship with my girls that I was very thankful for as every little girl should know what it is like to have a papa that loves and adores you. Kelsey and Grandpa had a unique bond.. and she would be the only one he would listen to at times (inside family joke) Over the past few months I had not got to spend as much time with him as Steve and the girls did as I worked alot of hours, but the times I had he would let me know he loved me and would encourage me to just keep on going... Grandpa has been in my life for a longgggg time and has helped me through ALOT.... I so enjoyed the relationship Steve had with him as they would work on cars together(grandpa couldn't do alot of bending or lifting in these last few years) or any other project Steve would be doing there would be grandpa to give his advice and just chat it up.. This has been very hard on everyone who knew and loved grandpa and although he was 83 years old he still seemed like a GIANT in my eyes...
Yesterday was going to be more memories made as I was to graduate and he has been telling me all along he would be there and just different encouraging things like that... I awoke around 1PM(as I work nights) I was told that grandpa was unreachable and even though this at times was normal as he sometimes did not hear his phone I just did not have a good feeling..... so I jumped in the car and ran over to the church to check on him and when I pulled in and seen both his vehicles there I guess I knew but was not admitting what had happened.... I knocked on his door a few times and called out GRANDPA ITS ANGIE..... I opened the door and there I found grandpa.... I called 911 of course right away and checked for a heart beat and breathing and of course there were none... part of my brain knew he had been gone for awhile as the evidence was presented in the physical sense but the other part the emotional side didn't want to believe it. very strange feeling.. I wanted to perform CPR and as the 911 dispatcher said it was up to me but she advised against it after I explained the scene and the condition he was already in. Glendale Fire responded SOOO fast and of course took over from there and he was pronounced on the scene and had been gone for several hours.... Thank GOD Steve was already heading home and came straight over.. everyone was so touched by how much we loved him ..... grandma and mother and our girls along with Ryan and Shelby were there ..the Glendale fire and police called in the crisis response team to be there to help how they could and I am so thankful for those guys. They were right there and kept the situation calm and helped coordinate with grandpa's children who were out of town and so many people to call and they jumped right in and helped. They gave the kids teddy bears and gave information on how to deal with grief with not only adults but children as well. THe one guy told me this call was hard for him as he seen how hard the great-grand kids took the news... The police officers kept going on and on about how they found a tape recorder next to grandpa playing Bible verses.. So even in his passing grandpa was a testimony..
There are things I have left out for obvious reasons and others I am just not ready to share.. We are all missing grandpa and it just does not seem real that he is gone yet... we already miss him and will see him in heaven again someday I have no doubt... Please pray for Grandma for strength during all this.. pray for his children and grand children and great grandchildren as well.. We ALL need your prayers during this time... I have personally felt the presence of the HOLY SPIRIT from the very beginning even in the midst of the onset of grief and am so thankful for that. What a great big GOD we serve and as I was saying goodbye to him at the scene one more time I purposed in my heart even more to make heaven my goal and take everyone with me that I can... Life is to short and fragile and yes he lived a full life but it is never easy saying goodbye...
We love you grandpa and miss you already.
SO Grandpa this is not a goodbye but a farewell till we meet you in Heaven again someday!
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