April.. already?

This is seriously crazy... April ALREADY!! WOW.. As most of you know life in the Wiseman home has been unchanging.. It is still crazy as ever... Started the new year off with a bang, well I did.. With my heart attack in February, things took another turn for us... The past few months have been .. well.. HARD yet good.. Confused? When we were able to finally move on with our own life last August, for a moment thought.. WOW everything will be back to "normal" who was I kidding? And dont get me wrong, I am totally fine with the direction GOD has taken us... Just never expected it.. I am sure I am not alone?!? SO after loosing Dad Wiseman during Christmas of 2009, a devastating month of January( between God & Us) My heart attack in February, and just being totally overwhelmed, spent the month of March looking and feeling like" Is this really happening? What is going on? Twilight Zone!!" So now we are in April, 15 days to be exact... and THANKS BE TO GOD, still here, being molded and shaped into HIS image...
That isn't always a good feeling ya know, but oh how I have come to cherish these times, just when ya feel like you could not possibly take anything else... Jesus is right there to give what is needed to keep going.. No, He doesn't always take it away, but HE DOES carry us on... To be very honest, I told Steve I have felt like the past few months has been spent in a black never ending hole. Cold, dark, lonely, and all those other feelings that come along with that.. Yet I KNEW God was there, just did not feel Him all the time.. spent a few weeks of that in the darkest part I have felt in my life in a VERY long time.
GOD is faithful... and has shown us things about ourselves, our family , our home, our church, our relationships, that come to one conclusion... Ready/?????
NO ONE OR ANYTHING ON THIS EARTH IS PERFECT, including us!!! WOW!!! AMAZING RIGHT?@?@?!!!!!
I make light of it, but in all seriousness, we needed to be reminded of that... I am so glad.. so so so so glad, this is a personal walk.. Oh how I would hate to think someone else is trying to carry me & my bags around on top of their own.. SO why would I try to do the same? We must keep healthy boundaries, not just because we ourselves need them.. But also to not be a stumbling block to someone else .. ( Rambling? Yes but look up it is the title of this page you are reading)
So after a few rocky months, The Good Lord is still leading, still molding & shaping our family, and I am so glad HE IS! He is still on the Throne..
I admit I am not perfect, I have such a LONG way to go, I am not the most beautiful woman, nor the richest, I don't always buy name brand, have a brand new car, or the best furniture, my life is full of holes that I allowed the enemy to make in my past... But I can also tell you what I am...
I love with everything I am, I cry, I laugh, I get upset, I am a child of a KING, my name IS written down next to yours in the Lambs Great Book of Life( so accept it) Grace has covered all my stains, and JESUS is the link between my past and my future( thanks Beth Moore for that one) I will no longer apologise for who I am( yes to those of you who think I am to hyper, to loud, to ugly or to fat) ACCEPT IT, wont be changing unless The Lord changes it!! I am who I am, and MY GOD makes no mistakes, so I accept it, am thankful for it, and LOVE IT!!! I have a man who loves me, kids who love me, a family who loves me, a church who loves me, Friends who love me.... WHAT MORE could I ask for???

So having said all that, I turn the mirror around ( for the sake of not being hypocritical) and apply that to all the listed above people, and must offer the same room to them as I wish for myself... This is a learning process for me, as I said , I am NOT perfect.. Folks Heaven is around the corner, I do not want to miss it, and do not want to cause you to miss it either... SO lets put aside all the things that next to eternity do not really matter( how I wear my hair, my skirts, my sleeves, my shoes, my purses, my house, my car, where I go , what I do, my music, or the fact I have likes and dislikes) and let GOD purify us through and through and pray for one another instead of picking at things that if we were honest and turn the mirror on ourselves would see clearly... we have our own problems to deal with too!!! I am so thankful for people in my life who love me enough to pray for me, and still love me even with a big flashing sign that reads, "If looking for the perfect person keep going not here, if looking for a work in progress, look no further, I am right here"

SO stock market and jobs might be unstable, things are going up and down, everything is falling apart around us... BUT.... BUT... BUT ... I need not fear, I know who holds yesterday, today, and tomorrow.. HE HAS THE WHOLE WORLD IN HIS HANDS!!!! HE is the same... does not and has not nor will EVER change... Hallelujah!!!!!

2010

Wow... Still looks soooo weird to me to write that date... WHERE HAS TIME GONE??!! I grew up hearing the generations before me saying the same thing, yet just seems to pass by so much quicker than even back when... Our Holiday season was different this year, for sure.. but was very good.. It amazes me how the peace of GOD passes all our understanding... We had SUCH a GOOD time with family... can you have such a time in the midst of sorrow? YES.. why? Because OF JESUS!!!! HE makes all the difference in the world... I was given the greatest gift I could of even asked for this Christmas... The gift of growing closer to family... it takes loosing someone before you stop and say, wait a minuet, I have got to MAKE time for who is important in our life... I love our families.. very much.. both sides... but somehow over time we get so wrapped up into LIFE... so we are trying our best to "take" the time.. I say take because if we are honest.. it just is not there... Just as simple as a phone call keeps those you love just a bit closer.. I must say, when God gave me Steve, HE also gave me one awesome family with him... I love each and every one of you so much!!! Yes Daniel EVEN YOU.. hehehe( I have to give my brother N law a hard time) I am already looking forward to the next trip up to see them... now with Brenda living closer maybe we can all get together more...
In a few short weeks we are about to be.. are you ready for this? "Great" Uncle& Auntie .. again.. ACKKK... boy that is awesome.. but makes me feel SO OLD!!!! Alissa&David are about to have their lil one.. we are all waiting so excited to meet him/her.. I hope we get to go to Indiana this summer for the wiseman homecoming... we so enjoyed getting to spend time with Uncle Carl, Uncle Larry& Auntie Carol, and Steve's cousins, Aaron, Marla, and Elvin... ( I owe you a high heel pic Elvin)
The Lord has been so good, we have MUCH to be thankful for this New Year... Most Important above all else... I am Saved, Sanctified, and on my way to heaven!!! Whew Glory!!!
We made it for the last 2 days of our camp in mesa, got to see several win victory... we have had such great services, we are going into Revival tomorrow-Friday with Bro, Dan preaching.. I KNOW God is going to do some awesome things!!! We need to hold on, it will not be long I do not think before we hear that trumpet sound!!! Doesn't that just excite ya? It sure does me... yet makes me sad... there are many many many I am praying for.. but GOD is more than able... and I am believing!!! Hope everyone has a great week... keep praying, and believing.. Love you all!!

A time to laugh and a time to cry..

You never know what life is going to throw at ya next... We had no idea when planning for this Christmas season that we would instead be mourning the loss of a Dad/Dad N law/Papa... Steve's dad passed away on Dec 22@7:44 pm in Gallup New Mexico. We were there with most of the family when he passed... We are heading up to NM tomorrow and the Funeral is on Tuesday@11am.. I am thinking in a fog so I just posted the link to the right at the top... Please keep the family in your prayers, specially mama during this time... We have already been so overwhelmed with all the family and friends who have rallied around us during this time and lifted us up to the Throne of God!! THANK YOU!! WE do feel the PRAYERS!! God is good and has been very near to the family. Please also pray for safe traveling mercies for family that will be coming in from Indiana today through Monday. Appreciate you all so very much... One of the main reasons I did this blog was for family to keep up with us, Daddy told me on more than one occasion he enjoyed the pictures of us and keeping up with our life.. Now he is in a much better place and we ALL plan to meet him there very soon!!! We will miss you daddy, we loved you very much. Thank you for all your encouragement, advice, and jokes we shared through the years.. You raised me a good husband, full of character and strength.. I am proud of you Dad, and to be called your Daughter too!! Till we meet again daddy....

A few more pic's of shania's B-Day

Baby sister charlie all dressed up for the party!

The girls set the table! We had Ham, Mashed Potatoe's, Fried Green Beans, Salad, French Bread!

And here is Shania with the Birthday Cake Kelsey baked for her. We thought that was so sweet.... I love to see our girls show love for each other!! I told Kelsey I was very proud of her!! Even with the crooked candles...lol..

The girls being the girls... with daddy and a messy kitchen in the back ground..lol

Shania opening her present from Kaity and getting a birthday hug!

Kelsey smothering her big sister!

Shania with her gifts from her sister's

Shania and her Birthday Cake from Ms,Susie from church.. Susie made her a nice birthday dinner after church a few weeks ago.. Was very nice!

Another Birthday Party

Very Pretty Table..

I loved that lil tea set, the tea pot was missing in this pic..lol

Shania blowing out the candles of the cake Mrs,Nelson made for her

Mr.Howard

Kaity with the hat Isac plopped on her head... cute!

We were invited to Emily's Birthday Party and Mrs,Jennifer surprised shania with pink roses and a cake for her also!! Shania was so very excited to be thought of and included, was very sweet and gracious of them.. Also pink is her favorite color!! Thanks Nelsons!!

Do not have the recent pic's uploaded onto the computer yet, but we have been having good times and making lots of memories... Shania's birthday celebration was very nice.. we did not have a HUGE birthday bash with everyone over, no we had just US... See last year we were in Mo without Steve and Shania missed having her dad to help her celebrate her 12Th birthday. We also did not have him on thanksgiving.. so this year we have been somewhat selfish with our time... can not be helped :) We spent thanksgiving day down at Gospel Center camp and had such a good time helping in the kitchen and just being with great people. Juliana's mom is a BLASTTTTT to be around, such a sweet lady.. Camp ends this weekend and hope to make it back for the last few days of it... Monday we are going to start decorating for Christmas and I can not waittt* quietly squealing*lol.. Well I must run as it is WAY past my bed time... Had a very precious moment with Kaitlyn, not to tell all the details , something was really bothering her and she could not get to sleep nor stop crying, she was very upset. The end result was us praying together and talking out what was on her heart and lots of hugs and her saying"mama I feel so much better when I talk to you" ah love these moments, would gladly give up any amount of sleep for a moment like that.. Well goodnight all, trust your thanksgiving continues on throughout this Christmas season!

**********WARNING*** Teen years are aproaching at a high rate of speed!!

Ok so nothen long today, but just to say. ACKKKKKKKKKKKKKK... We will have a TEENAGER on the 21st of this month.. I am very excited for Shania, she is a good girl... Mom and Dad, not dealing so well.. rofl... Pray for this old mom that I will not blubber all over her this year.. I cry every year on all their Birthday's.. I know I am twisted.. I cry because they are not babies anymore, I cry because I am so happy they are entering a new phase of life, I cry because I am crying... ya I cry over everything... HA! and I dedicate a song to them each year... having a bit of a harder time this year... we shall see what it will be.. For sure will post the song AND pic's of our lil girl... Kaity will be right behind her in birthday's and THAT is going to really KILL ME.. no more single digit girls!!! Kelsey, That is a whole nother post.. ha! I love my girls!!! Have a great day everyone...